Not what you’d expect to hear from a psychic reader, right? I mean, I knew this would be a momentous year. The signs were all there. 2020 is a number four year in numerology, which is the Emperor in the Major Arcana of tarot. I expected this year to be really important. It would be the year to decide what your empire would be like and what changes needed to be made. I have been telling my clients to prepare to take action, to dig deep and examine what they really want in order to live their most fulfilling life.
Apparently the universe is having an Emperor year as well. Mother Nature decided it was time for a serious wake-up call. She put us in a time-out. This is some serious tough love, inviting us to dig deeper than we ever imagined. What a tumultuous world we live in! The pandemic, the resurgence of a call for social justice, quarantine, recession, and hyper-polarized politics. There are changes in how and where we work, play, and live. We are separated from loved ones. Nothing is the same as it was. The tectonic plates of our social contract have shifted. The world is Changed.
Depending on your temperament, this has been terrifying, stressful, worrisome, lonely, annoying, and for some, a welcome respite.
I don’t know about you, but I can’t count the times I’ve said “I wish I could ( fill in the blank here), if I only had the time.” Well, careful what you wish for, folks. Unless you are a first responder or a caregiver chances are you’ve had a lot of time on your hands to do those things. Did you? Did you indulge in binge watching movies or a TV series? Did you tackle a project, protest, read books, or learn a new skill?
Better yet, did you take this time to really examine your life and discover what is truly important? Were you surprised? I know that I was.
I was always someone with several irons in the fire at one time, happily running from a job, a gig, a board meeting, a reading, a party. I worked six or seven days a week, all day and most evenings. I loved my life. At least, I thought I did.
When the pandemic hit and we went into lockdown, I admit I freaked out a bit. Actually, I was in a panic, an uber-extrovert dealing with the terrifying reality of house confinement and the horrible feeling of being cut off from most people and all their delicious energy. I was anxious and depressed. I just didn’t know how to fit myself into this new normal. Plus, I felt guilty for feeling that way when others were suffering so much more.
Amazingly, after the initial shock wore off, I started to question my priorities. Some of the things that I thought were such an essential part of myself, especially the superficial things, started to fall away. I began to feel pared down, crystallized into a truer version of myself.
There is a sense of “rightness” in some of the changes. There are also challenges to face, and some of them are unwelcome truths I have been running from for decades. Can you relate? Now that flight isn’t an easy option, if we are brave, we can turn and face our fears. We can be still and listen and learn and crystallize.
There are lyrics from the song “For Good” from the musical Wicked that come to mind:
“I don’t know if I’ve been changed for the better, but because I knew you, I have been changed for good”
I’m spending time learning to know myself. I hope that I will be changed for the better. I hope that for you as well. I hope we emerge from our old ways of life, into a better, truer, more authentic life. I hope we lift each other up as well: for now with our hearts and minds and collective energy and some day together again with our hands and hugs and smiles and tears.
Some of us thought we were butterflies. Turns out we were very interesting caterpillars. I wonder, when we emerge from all this, how beautiful our wings will be.
Love and Light,
If you’d like a guide to discover how to live your best life and build an empire that is right for you, I would be honored to help you in your journey.